I fucking hate myself
I did it again and now I’m crying because I won’t ever be good enough.

I’m scared
And I have reason to be
But maybe I should just shut off and shut up for a while
Save us the trouble of dealing with this,
Of you rejecting and me hurting.

Youre fucking kidding me right now.
You’re my own fucking brother and after everything you fucking block me for no reason?
After years of me trying to have a relationship with you after the petty, stupid bullshit you and my parents went through?
And even your wife is surprised by this?
What the fuck.
What the fuck did I do wrong?
What is so wrong with me that you couldn’t possibly try to have a decent relationship with me as your sister after all that shit went down?
You fucking left me just like you always did and always will but for some reason I keep trying.

I feel my heart explode I can’t explain the sky is falling down
I can not calm it down it’s like a rage inside my skin and bones
It’s eating me alive

"I wonder
whose arms would I run and fall into
if I were drunk
in a room with everyone
I have ever loved."
-

this becomes almost deeper when you think of non-romantic loves too (via asimetricna-vagina)

this is the scariest thing in the world, tbh

(via princessharuhi)

(Source: abbycogen, via the-person-who-watches-you-sleep)